I am sorry, I did not know you are 18 now. But I try to keep it, my princess. Do not worry about me. Sometimes I am sad cuz of my patients, but this is life and there is nothing more what I could do for them. Maybe somebody like Seth was waiting for her.
LOL, that's OK. BTW, it's kind of you to call me princess...
Yeah, death is inevitable. Nobody is willing to face it, but after all we still have to accept it... facing the truth is important, right? And yes... may your patient find some comfort in the heaven!! (oops this is similar to the lyric of the soundtrack of City of Angels...)
I am sorry, I did not know you are 18 now. But I try to keep it, my princess. Do not worry about me. Sometimes I am sad cuz of my patients, but this is life and there is nothing more what I could do for them. Maybe somebody like Seth was waiting for her.
Anyway, LULA, sometimes I am describing my "cyber" friends to my housband, he is not speaking englis, and I would like to make him familiar with the things going around me and around the forum. I was talking about Bonnie, onlynic, mara, and other members there, and believe or not, also about you. My housband found you to be the best, the most interesting, inspiring and so son. So I have just to share it to you. DO not worry, i am not jealous, after 16 years or couple life, you know, unconditional love.
i'm really glad you are ok Mara! I was going to make a suggestion that you could stay indoors wrapped up warm, hibernation style,maybe have some chill out lazy days in your pj,s and fluffy socks with a hot cuppa ... And your laptop of course! Or even some more fun kind of indoor pursuits depending on who you got snowed in with.....! Lol.
Thanks you two for the nice words about being strong...not sure it's true when you're faced with no other choice, but I guess a certain kind of strength develops when challenged for long periods of time. I have to say though, alongside the suffering comes a beautiful gift...the gift of clarity and truth, of all that is beautiful and what love truly is. And I've been given the opportunity to spend years in meditation, like a monk living in a mountain sanctuary, what could be better than that? I cannot tell you how much I have learnt and am learning and how my spiritual journey has unfolded and the gifts of the universe I receive daily..as in this quietness my learning comes directly through experience not books and I know my life's purpose is shaping itself for things to come...!
And...Although I'm surrounded by the suffering of others, there is much joy here too! Amazing how so many individuals with ailments have very special unique gifts, there is a guy here who is the most emotional painter ever his heart is so deep...and my own Reiki master for example, an incredible healer with her own physical problems, I used to witness her literally writhing in pain on the floor, as attacks of neuralgia racked her body and yet...never have I experienced such pure healing energy.
I wonder if gifts sometimes come with a cost, even if not a visible one like a physical ailment, maybe emotionally?
And before I could get any more way off topic, I'm going to put a sock in it! (for non english speaking people that means I'm going to shut up now )
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Ah, Jenny, sorry for hearing this heartbreaking news... I hope you can cheer up ASAP!
The place where I live is sunny and breezy every day now, but I've always been longing to go to the places where it snows in winter! Wish everyone has a happy and SAFE holiday coming soon!! ;)
p.s. I'm 18 now... the number 17 in my account has something to do with Nic.
Jenny you´re so sweet! Don´t worry about me, the snowstorm which trapped so many cars took place in the north of Spain, in a region called Asturias, far away from Madrid. We´ve had some heavy snowstorms around the city, in the mountain ridge of Guadarrama. But not where I live... I´m sorry about your patient... you must be an excellent doctor, so caring and giving... but reality is stubborn and this kinda thing happens.
Lula, I couldn´t agree more with Bonnie: you´re probably the strongest person I know. Just reading your thoughts makes me learn volumes about life. You´re truly an inspiration.
Isn't it funny how people who appear to be 'sickly or weak' often are the strongest people of all, like Lula?? And in reverse, how people who appear to be 'strong and resisilant' can actually be those people who need the most support? I've seen this happen in my own family. I find it a very strange phenomenon that 'strong' appearing people can be almost invisible, even to their loved ones.
And dear Jenn.....I'm sorry about the loss of your patient. It's tragic when someone so young dies.
And Mara..........stay warm and safe, my friend!
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Every time you don't follow your inner guidance, you feel a loss of energy, loss of power, a sense of spiritual deadness. ~~~~Shakti Gawain~~~~
Thanks jen I'm workin on it always and have every intention of getting back into the world again. The spirit within me is strong..hey I should look like xena with all the warrior energy I have going on inside me! i'm sorry to have brought it up I don't talk that often about it really, not being secretive, just people find it weird. I only did then to be congruent and truthful in my answer!
Lol, you made me laugh out loud with your story about your son!:biggrin I'm sure he meant you are xena because you are brave strong and mighty and you are his heroine!
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Thank you for these sentences. I hope you will be OK, I red, you had some problems, but I am sure, that you will be better very soon. I promise, I will be thinking about you, I am not sure if this could work but maybe you can fell my support. And if this is not enough..... I tell you what my son told me yesterday. We were watching TV prog, the movie about the warrior princes XENA, do you know xena? And my son told me. O Mam you are like just the XENA. I said, that it is great you are thinking I am so brave. And he said, mam, you are not so brave, you are so fat. and I am nooooooooooooooooot.
I was lost somewhere after that, i was thinking, what was bad during my last pregnacy? LOL jenn
Aw Jen bless you for such beautiful sentiments and the reminder of the miracle of life.
I'm so sorry to hear about your patient. It is so hard to fathom such tragedy. I'm living in a neurological unit at the moment, surrounded by people with brain injuries from accidents and others like myself with neurological illnesses, so I have a daily reminder of the miracles of life, and perhaps it is our role almost to remind others of what is important in life and what isn't. Sometimes we only see the true reality of all that is important after we lose that which we hold on to so tightly, and realize in the end those things don't really matter.
Love is all!
I didn't know about the snow in Madrid! We had massive flooding here in the west of of the uk over the weekend with people trapped in cars. .
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Dear Mara, I saw in yesterday news that there is a snow cataclysm around the madrid. Some cars were trapped onto the highway. Are you OK? I was thinking about you, plase do not drive today, only if it is necessary. OK. Promise me this. I am sad, cuz I had a patient after a car accident, and I lost her this weekend during the duty. She was only 17, like our ONLYNIC. HEY GIRLS, take care and be careful, right. EVERYBODY without exception. Drivers, nondrivers, your life is a miracle, remeber this.
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